This week, Jamie Ridler once again has a fabulous, right-on-target question for Wishcasting Wednesday. "What do you wish to nourish?" she asks. I read that this morning, and I teared up a little. What? Really? Hmmm... must be something in there that I need. I just didn't know what.
So I've gone about my day, doing other things, but always with this question in the back of my mind. What do I wish to nourish? I can feel--rather intensely--that there's something important here, but I'm having the hardest time with it. I can't quite seem to get a grasp on it. Something in me is desperate for nourishment, and I can't quite figure out what it is.
My first response was "my heart." But that's not enough. Not deep enough, not detailed enough, not real enough. What do I mean by that? I'm not sure. I need to nourish my heart and my sensual/sensory self. I need to nourish the part of me that dreams and visions and watches clouds and stars and the moon.
My creative self I could call her. But that's also not a full enough answer. That's not just my creative self who revels in the senses and dreams under the sky. That's my real self. That's all of me, and she's buried somewhere, stuck in the sand, only fingers and toes and maybe a hand breaking free and waving at the world so we know she's still there.
I need to nourish me.