Kelly Rae Roberts' Flying Lessons class started on Sunday. I was sick all weekend--still have a pretty bad sore throat although it's finally getting better--so I'm just delving into all the wonderful material today.
I wanted to write a bit about why I almost didn't take this class. Part of it was money; at first I just didn't have it, but then a bit of good luck last week made that a non-issue. But a big part of why I hesitated was an idea that I shouldn't need the class. I felt that I've been slacking on my business, on my creative work, on life in general, and I was angry with myself. I thought I should already know how to do all the things Kelly is going to teach us or that I should be able to figure it out or find the information on my own. I guess I thought I didn't deserve to take the class because I should have done more, been more, accomplished more by now.
Then someone I didn't know on Twitter--we started a conversation because of Flying Lessons--said to me, "Wow does that mean you now have a clear idea where you are heading?" I stopped dead. I read it again. I went away and thought about it. I came back and read that again. I knew the answer. I have some idea where I'm heading, but I have very little clue about the exact steps to take to get there. I also somehow realized right then that where I am right now is okay. There's no actual reason why I should already know this stuff. But it's stuff I really want to know, stuff I think will be really helpful. And I deserve all the help I can find to reach my goals. So many realizations from one small comment!
So. Here I am in the first week of class, panicking a little because I'm already behind. And having a hard time settling down to do what I need to do. But in the first lesson, Kelly said she hopes we're celebrating taking the class, making this investment in ourselves.
Yeah, it is a celebration. This is a nice long stretch of the road on the way to my dreams! So, to help me settle my mind and get started, and to celebrate this step, I made a journal for my class notes. I used a Moleskine Cahier with a cardboard kraft cover, and I glued and stamped and wrote on it. I created three rectangles on the back for something in the future--don't know what yet--but here's my Flying Journal:
And now I see the runway is clear before me. Time for me to take off!