Wednesday, January 25, 2012
I'm Just a Ball of Confusion
The funny thing about this yarn is that it's actually a muted, heathery berry color. Filters altered it completely away from its reality. It's like me. I look like one thing on the outside, but I'm actually something quite different. I tend to look calm and competent and as if I have a plan. Mostly, though, I'm just confused and longing for a clear path and wishing I could figure out how to do all the things I want to do. And then I curl up with candy, kitties, and TV shows and block it all out for a while.
That's what I did the past couple of days. There was a lot of knitting and reading in there, too. I wasn't quite ready to jump back into the world on Monday, so I decided to just give myself time and space and let my heart tell me when it was ready to enter the world again. Today, my heart is still sore, but it is better. I needed that downtime--days' worth, not just an evening or afternoon. It was a good plan.
Speaking of plans, even though I wasn't actively working on my story it was working on itself in the back of my head. My muse gifted me with a great addition to what's happening with my MC; it's going to be very important later in the story!
I also had to admit to myself that I don't really like Scrivener. I want to like it. There are a lot of things I do like. But somehow it's not working for me. The main issue is not being able to add colored text, larger text, bold or italic text on my note cards. Some of what I write in my scene cards is more important that the other stuff, and I like to be able to make it stand out. I also like bulleted lists on my scene notes, and Scrivener doesn't let me do that, either. The final straw is that, although I followed their instructions for loading and using it from my flash drive, it gets hung up with some files and thinks it can't open them on my work computer. I'm constantly fearful that I'll sit down to work on my story only to find that I'm missing parts or can't access some of it. Not conducive to writing, let me tell you! So I'm going back to The Journal, and I'll worry about moving it to something where I can print it, turn it into a single file, and all of that exciting stuff later. For now I just want to go back to my writing, and The Journal makes it easy and comfortable, so I'm sticking with it.
One last little bit in this somewhat disjointed ramble of mine--I'm going to try doing an ongoing blog post each week with details each day of what I wrote that day. I'm going to include everything--journaling, writing from prompts, character sketches, work on my story. I'll keep this as a draft, write it from Monday-Sunday, then post it on Monday before starting the next one. I like the idea of seeing what I've done each week, and I also like the idea of being able to get encouragement from my writing buddies.
Thank you, everyone, for your kind and compassionate responses on Sunday. I love this ROW80 crowd! See you Sunday, and until then, happy writing!