Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Wishcasting Wednesday--Summer, Summer, Summer!

I used to love summer.  Maybe some of that was because of the freedom of being out of school, although I was also one of those kids who, by mid-July, was actively planning and longing for the start of the new school year.  I also used to love the sun, putting on my bathing suit and tanning in the yard, fully equipped with suntan lotion, magazines and books, sunglasses, music and a cool drink.

 

 Now?  I hate it.  I don't have appropriate summer clothes because I can't stand to not be covered up, plus it's really hard to find things in my size so shopping, especially for summer clothes, is a nightmare (doubly so with my foot, ankle and leg problems because I can scarcely find shoes that don't hurt my feet let alone cute, summer sandals!).  I feel awkward and ungainly going out in public, and it's worse in summer because there's just not enough fabric to the clothing to offer me much armor.  And then it stays light longer, so there's not even the comfort of the cover of darkness!  I hate summer (oh when did the beach loving, dreams of living in California girl turn to this?!).  Bring on autumn with it's crisp air and beautiful colors and darker evenings and cozy, concealing clothing.

Ah, this whole post makes me sad.  I wanted to skip Wishcasting this week, but I have promised myself that I'm going to talk more about my body issues and wanting to hide all the time, and then Jamie popped up with this summer question, and it was clearly a good place to dive in.


This week, Jamie's question is, "What do you wish for this summer?"  What do I wish for?  To find a way to be comfortable in my skin and my clothes and my shoes so I can just let go and enjoy the warm breezes and bright sun (if they ever arrive here in rainy Portland) and the long days and relaxed nights...I wish for some of that summertime joy that I used to have when I was young.

15 comments:

Grace said...

Oh, Kim!! My heart goes out to you! So many women struggle with body image! My g/fs and I (especially as we've gotten older) LIVE for the fall and winter, when we can put on layers and scarfs, and jackets - so our "Wings" don't show! LOL :)

As you wish for yourself, I truly wish for you as well. Here's to loving YOU..all of YOU...perfect just the way you are!

Camilla said...

I too wish to feel better in my skin. To find clothes that I love to wear and make me feel pretty. I can relate to your pain.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

Mouse said...

(((((Kim)))))) I think it is indeed a rare person that is totally comfortable in their body and skin.

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you too ...... and for the next steps forward you take to be full of joy and anticipation, even if they are uncomfortable :)

Ginny said...

Hi Kim,
I think we all understand where you are coming from - I know I do. I hope that you will give yourself a chance to enjoy the warm summer breezes. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

The girl is still there. You might want to let her take you by the hand and go out. :)
As Kim wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Beverley Baird said...

Such heartfelt wishes! May they all be fulfilled!
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

" M " said...

I know what ya mean , Im right there with ya , Im scared to be in a bathing suit looking the way I do. Hang in there .

As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also!

mamadontwanna said...

Alas, I too will never fit into a thong LOL. But when I think of all those people in my life who mean the most to me, the "gems and jewels" as I call the, none of them are models. Not a one. They are priceless to me just as they are. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also.

lareveusedebijoux said...

Dear Kim,

I'm 51 years old and a few months ago, I was on a journey with my husband for our 25th wedding anniversary and for the first time: I fall in love with my body!

As you wish for yourself, I wish for you also.

And big hugs from a french friend.

eclairee-creative
http://eclaircreative.canalblog.com

Lucy Ladham-Dyment said...

I understand your wish. You can be comfortable in your skin..... As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

My Courageous Life said...

Kim: This is a beautiful wish. Thank you for taking the chance to share it with all of us. As Kim wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

Carrie said...

As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you as well.

deb did it said...

Kim...this is such a brave, open honest post.THANK YOU...for you, beautiful YOU. ~ I wish for you Kim, exactly as you wish for yourself~

Sandy VanNocker said...

Big Hug, Kim!! I know how it is to have body issues - I've struggled with it always.

Last year, I started with just little steps - ones I felt I could manage - and just kept at it. What a difference a year makes!! Start small...one step at a time.

As you wish for yourself, so I wholeheartedly wish for you!

Kim Switzer said...

Thank you so much for all the supportive comments! It's nice to know I'm not alone, even though I wish we didn't all have these body issues. But we know they're there, so that lets us get a handle on them I think.

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